You know what sucks?
The reality that things aren't free. I have to pay $1790 for the first of my 10 school payments i have to make this year. Yeah. In order to do such, i am getting a cash advance on my visa card. I have to figure out how to do that too...
Well, it's due thursday.
Crap.
Life sucks.
I'm feeling pretty depressed, stressed and tired.
Maybe I'll just sleep for a very long time and it will all go away...
no, that won't work. I wish it would.
I guess its time to stand up and be a man.
Here i go, out into the real world. It's a scary place.

I'll admit that It's a good feeling, knowing that I am taking care of it all myself, but still... It's a lot of money, and I don't have it. As long as I get all A's and B's, my dad will pay me back after the semester. I think I'm getting all a's and b's, but who can tell these days? I'm pretty sure. I hope i don't screw this up.
OK, too stressed to continue to write.
on a good note, me and my dad went to the Greek Islands downtown today. wow, it may have been the best food ever. I really liked it... I had lamb in pasta. the lamb was falling off the bone, and the pasta had this really good tomato flavored sauce... oh, so good. It's the tuesday special of the day.
just the two of us was $40.
he's got money.
He said if i bring him a letter from my teachers saying that I am getting an a or a b in the classes he will make my next payment. I better be getting a's by then.
I hope.
pray for me every day.
pray that I study and remember everything i read and that i do well on my tests and that i get through all this.
Thanks.
I'm gonna go sleep now.
mike